About Carole

Artist, writer, PhD researcher and organic gardener. Twitter @carolekirk

Not published after all

The book arrived this morning.  Despite being on the list of contributors, my poem is not in the book.  Out of the list of 127 contributors, only 34 are in the book.  And guess who has 42 poems in the book?  You guessed it – the artist himself.  I feel duped.

Just to make myself feel better, I’ve found my poem and typed it up.

Circle poem

Career change

I had my first mid-life crisis when I was in my early thirties.  After ten years of working my socks off, I realised that going home in tears every night was not healthy.  And what was worse, I was not even achieving anything.  What a waste of a life.

I spent several sessions with a careers counsellor.  This was one of the most positive and liberating experiences I have had.  I learned that I wanted to help others to grow and develop, and I realised I had been supressing my creative instincts and abilities for years.

I got a job as a management development consultant, coaching managers and teams to be the best they can be.  I studied for my MA in Management Learning with Lancaster University.  I took watercolour classes and started working through Betty Edwards Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain.  But although I loved the work that I did, my company continued to frustrate me and I couldn’t do my best work.

The opportunity to take redundancy came up, so I grabbed it with both hands.  I enrolled in college, studying art and design which was completely new to me.  I continued to coach friends and ex-colleagues, and they told me I had a gift for this and should do more.  I started to write, and have completed several writing courses. 

I’ve realised that I need a portfolio-career.  I have also realised that I make my career up as I go along.  I suspect most of us do; we just don’t realise how we can turn this to our best advantage and create a life that fits us like a favourite pair of PJs.